Well, Nathan went back to school this week which has left me with a lot of time to clean, do what I want, and think. Now, you can only do so much cleaning before you don't want to do any more. The what I want wont take place til Wednesday (wedding dress shopping) and then it comes to the thinking. I really want to get a part time job with school, I dont know what I would do but I really like helping people. Its hard to find a place that has a good attitude about helping people. Sometimes I feel like people think that it is something they have to do, they do not want to do it, they just have to. What frustrates me is that these are people too..
Another thing I have been thinking about is marriage, what's it going to be like? Will Nate and I's wedding go off with out a hitch? or will something go wrong like always go wrong. How in the world are we ever going to pay for it. What have I forgotten about that we still need to do. I know that I shouldnt worry that much about it.. its still 290 days away.
Then I start to think about something that is comming sooner... graduation.. .what am I going to do with myself after graduation, am I going to be able to get a job?
Before all of that, I have to think about myslef.... Listen to "A More Beautiful You" By Jonny Diaz.... This song is great and its great for some one who doesnt think highly of herself. Sometimes I think so much about others that I almost forget about myslef. I dont know how to fix this
For that matter, I don't know how to fix much that is going on with my life...
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